| Neil
Chris wrote the music a while before. His demo was called 'Shame'.
Chris This song sounds like the music for a holiday programme.
Neil
That's what George Michael said.
Chris
Some of it also sounds like New Order to me. The baseline is from a keyboard
that you only buy for that bass sound.
Neil
We struggled a bit with this, and then we applied the Spanish idea to
it and found the sample of Spanish gypsies. I wanted it to sound like
pilgrims singing. In the first verse you have me comparing my life with
the pilgrims in Santiago de Compositely. These pilgrims have walked 120
miles and it means they've achieved eternal salvation, and then there's
pathetic Neil looking out of the hotel window thinking about how good
it must be to have that kind of faith. The second verse is set in Budapest
- these were both real trips I'd just taken. It was 1996 and in post-communist
Hungary there were still people who looked like they had really shit lives,
and it was five years since communism had ended.
They're still waiting 'for market forces to provide/what history's so
far denied'. Everyone really only wants the same things - comfort, security,
education. It doesn't seem that much to ask. But it seems impossible to
get it. And I'm sitting in a big international hotel drinking a glass
of white wine and looking at them. There's a certain amount of guilt,
I suppose, about that. And then, in the song, I'm comparing these things
with what I'll decide to do, whether I should step aside because I don't
want to be changed anymore by the
experiences
I've been going through. It's partly about me and the relationship I was
in. The end bit is the important bit: 'Will I always need you?/ Would
you want me to?' In other words, it's all very nice now, but it's not
going to last. Or will it? There was also some sort of notion in the song
about stepping aside from the Pet Shop Boys, or from pop music. Just thinking
about what it does to you, being famous and being in a pop group.
Do you grow away from your roots completely? I'm not convinced that you
do, but it's thinking about that, saying: maybe wouldn't it be a good
thing to step aside? I sometimes think I'd rather give up the competition
of the whole thing and live quietly somewhere. Live a simple life. Not
try to be clever. I think about it all the time. But I don't want to do
it, either.
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